schatzi

Little Thing

2012-01-20T10:12:00.001+07:00

semua berasal dari hal kecil. hal sepele. dimana hal sepele ini mengantarkan lo ke sesuatu yang belom pernah lo bayangin sebelumnya.

dimulai dari padus mahasiswa baru angkatan 2010 U dan I. disini gue jadi mahasiswa baru yang bener-bener buta soal dunia kuliah, dunia kampus. dan ketika gue ikut paduan suara pertama kalinya untuk mengantarkan wisudawan ke kehidupan baru... rasanya ngga ada obat, sakit banget, syahdu banget. terharu dalem hati gue. gue pengen digituin juga. pengen banget. bayangin suasana balairung yang mungkin sekitar 10000 orang disana berkumpul, mahasiswa, wisudawan, orang tua, dosen dosen, acaranya men hikmatnya ngga ada yang ngalahin, dan ketika kita semua nyanyi Gaudeamus Igitur rasa terharunya 140 % ngga ada obaaaatttt fix banget :''''

terus disana di kolom wisudawan paling kanan di balairung, fakultas teknik, 300 orang wisudawan, dengan jayanya selalu teriak bangga yel yel teknik, gue sebagai juniornya yang masih bocah, tengil, ngerasa salut mereka bisa seberani itu. ngerasa bangga jadi maba teknik. iyalah. teknik. kapan sih ngga bikin bangga -_-

terus gue liat lagi. setiap wisudawan yang ada dari semua fakultas barisannya dipisahin. gue peratiin apa bedanya. ada 3 jenis. baru gue tau, barisan pertama ada dua orang, ternyata barisan summa cum laude (mungkin juga nggak pake summa) buat fakultasnya dia, pasangan perempuan dan laki-laki. mereka yang dipanggil maju ke podium buat dapat penghargaan atas IPK terbaik mereka di fakultas, gue yakin itu pasti susah banget.......... teknik..... IPK sekitar 3,9 itu......... ukh.

di belakang mereka ternyata ada barisan wisudawan cum laude, gue ingetnya fakultas teknik ada 60 wisudawan cum laude. tempat mereka spesial juga, lapang, depan.

selebihnya, di belakang barisan cum laude adalah wisudawan teknik, saja.

sumpah, ngeliat itu mulai dari situ gue niat dalem hati, sampe sekarang. gue mau duduk di barisan paling depan pas wisuda. entah mau bagaimanapun caranya, mau seberat apapun usahanya. gue ngga mau duduk di barisan paling belakang, karena, sumpek :'''' panas itu pasti, ngga kena kipas angin. kalo di depan kan lapaaanggg, legaaaa. dan karena hidup gue cuman sekali, gue mau gue orang yang paling diliat dari keramaian pada acara sehikmat itu. gue mau semua orang ngeliat perjuangan gue di teknik diliat dari dimana tempat gue duduk. dan karena gue ngerasa di teknik gue udah berjuang keras, pengorbanan gue udah banyak banget, gue nggak mau duduk paling belakang. nggak mau. nggak keliatan perjuangan gue kalo kaya gitu mah. udah susah susah masa biasa aja.

fix, kan? hal sepele.

tapi dari situ, gue mulai cari tahu ke temen temen, gimana caranya supaya gue bisa duduk disitu, apa syaratnya. ternyata syaratnya cuman 3, IPK diatas 3.5, 8 semester, dan ngga boleh ngulang.

Predikat Kelulusan terdiri atas :

Memuaskan dengan IPK 2,00 s.d 2,75;
Sangat Memuaskan dengan IPK 2,76 s.d 3,50;
Cum laude dengan IPK 3,51 s.d 4,00;

Predikat kelulusan cum laude bagi program sarjana diberikan kepada lulusan yang menyelesaikan studi selama-lamanya 8 (delapan) semester, dan diperoleh tanpa mengulang mata kuliah. Apabila IPK 3,51 s.d 4,00 tetapi tidak memenuhi persyaratan diatas, maka yang bersangkutan mendapat predikat kelulusan Sangat Memuaskan.

Keputusan Majelis Wali Amanat Universitas Indonesia Nomor: 006/MWA-UI/ 2004 tentang Kurikulum Pendidikan Akademik Universitas Indonesia Pasal 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, dan 13

dan dari situ, gue mulai belajar, gue mulai berpikir gue harus gimana saat ngejalanin kuliahnya. udah 3 semester sekarang, dengan gue tau 3 syarat itu udah mulai dari semester 1 gue ngga mau ada yang ngulang, ip gue fixin mulai dari yang agak sulit dulu, minimal diatas 3, dan fix disini semester 1 semester 2 gue aman, dan di semester 3, karena gue tau semester 3 di jurusan gue semester terjun bebas, makanya gue mulai ngebiasain diri lagi lebih disiplin lagi, lebih banyak belajar lagi, ngurangin main, ngga banyak banyak ngambil kepanitiaan, organisasi. dan semester 3 gue? fix lulus semua.

gila men, dari mimpi yang sederhana, "gue nggak mau duduk di belakang pas wisuda nanti" muncul diri gue yang baru yang ngga pernah gue bayangin sebelumnya. gue pas sma ngga gini......... jauuuuh banget dari gue yang sekarang. fix. jauh banget. semester 1 & 2 gue masih main main...... tapi semester 3 gue belajar tanggung jawab sama nilai nilai gue, gue belajar disiplin, gue mulai tau waktu, yang tadinya gue ngerti waktu cuman berdasarkan jam, tapi sekarang hitungan menit mainnya.

gue ngerasa, cum laude itu susah didapet, banget. itu pasti. tapi worth it buat dikejar. tapi, tapiii, lebih pasti lagi, gue yakin gue bisa dapet gelar minimal cum laude. bahkan mimpi gue lebih dari itu. summa cum laude meeeen gue summa cum laude!!!! IPK tertinggi di fakultasnya. gue mau disaat wisuda nanti orang tua gue menangis dalam haru. terharu dengan siapa gue dalam kerumunan wisudawan U dan I. siapa yang nggak mau sih?

dimulai dengan niat yang sederhana, muncul mimpi yang besar, dijalani dengan perjuangan yang gila, kita liat aja hasilnya nanti. gue berdoa terus.... sampe sekarang.

nah, pernah juga ngerasain pengalaman kaya gini nggak? kalo iya, kebayang ngga sih sebelumnya hal kecil bisa mengantarkan lo ke tempat yang jauh? hahaha.

P.S. 86 sks lagi yes banget men. good luck buat lo semua yang baca post ini, dengan apapun yang lo impikan.

2012-01-18T08:05:00.000+07:00

the world forgives.

before physical chemistry learning session.

2012-01-10T10:05:00.001+07:00

A Salute to Ann Ward

the ones that had watched ANTM cycle 15, you know what I'm talking about :3

I salute her for who she is now.

I think that everyone can change into a better person if the one knows the thing he/she fights for.

iihs

2012-01-04T12:16:00.000+07:00

Spot on: Mecca.

I missed this place. my friends. my uniforms.

I also haven't collected my certificate, yet. it's like, I'm untitled now -_-

P.S. don't laugh at me, you!

rough sketch.

2011-12-31T20:46:00.002+07:00

this year is so making me feel alive. enormously. feeling. alive. until the last day ends.

do you feel the same?

Annelot de Waal

One of IMG Models I Fancy

31 December 2011

2011-12-21T22:19:00.002+07:00

because I'm priceless... that...................................................

details always drive me insane

2011-12-21T21:31:00.001+07:00

Howl's Moving Castle, Spirited Away, Totoro, Ponyo, Princess Mononoke, Whisper of The Heart, All Films that Studio Ghibli has made will always be my favorite :')

Biennale 2011

2011-12-18T06:23:00.003+07:00

epic biennale always been epic!

Holy Shit

"Your worst enemy is yourself"

(bloggernya numpang nampang dikit.....)

(made of Resin and catalyst)

(sok) keren bet njir adek gue.........

;O

2011-12-13T07:44:00.002+07:00

Thank you, Thank you, Thank you
13 December 2011

happy first month wey :)
"It's you I choose to see instead"

vintage

2011-12-12T23:25:00.002+07:00

Taver and Ardhoux
12 December 2011

my only life

2011-12-12T20:11:00.000+07:00

entah kehidupan seperti apa yang menunggu gue di masa depan....

half of it.

2011-12-11T20:00:00.001+07:00

I'm happy but not fulfilled when 4 out of 9 of us gathered. just like ocha said, "some walks you have to take alone." but then shika said, "bonds are necessary so whenever we're apart, we still remember and treasure each other. that's why I want us to get together." just............. God, I'd kill to see 9 of us again.

2011

2011-12-07T16:53:00.001+07:00

Dolce & Gabbana Spring 2011 and Kenzo Spring 2011 will always be my favorite. utmost.

since details were always my thing.

buku, pesta, cinta

2011-12-07T16:22:00.000+07:00

gue lagi ada di suatu tempat dimana rasanya buku adalah satu satunya kehidupan gue, ilmu pengetahuan yang segitu luasnya gue timba abis abisan tapi ngga abis abis rasa haus gue, tapi tiba tiba gue dibawa pergi ke angan angan dimana gue jadi perempuan berumur dewasa yang lagi doyan doyannya pesta kesana sini mau coba segala hal baru, sensasi baru, dunia baru, dan tiba-tiba lagi gue kembali ke masa anak sekolah yang lagi norak senorak-noraknya jatuh cinta. such life.

But I don't really need another one. a typical one is enough for now :')

it's happening

2011-12-05T21:16:00.004+07:00

Freak Out
13 April 2011

when you think you are in the middle of the game. their game. all surrounded. even the closest thing you get yourself into, money, are their things. everything you see turn into something you loathe. then tell me what's wrong with this life? I loathe them but I live in their system. and it's happening. freaking me out...

keine annung

2011-12-05T17:24:00.010+07:00

Pour Quoi? Parce Que
09 October 2008

warum liebe ich dich?

warum sind die bananen krumm?

Niemand weiss.

what can you do with your digicam

2011-12-03T05:37:00.003+07:00

Only Grass
30 July 2008

Super Rose
30 July 2008

Love
30 July 2008

let her

2011-11-29T09:00:00.005+07:00

Love Is in The Air

2008

featuring Nadia Permatasari

because love is a doing word, because love is a verb.

love is to let go of everything

love is to let it be.

if you really love her, let go, let her be.
let her be with the one she wants.

tau gitu

2011-11-27T17:52:00.007+07:00

I just heard (the real time was 7 PM on Wednesday 16th March 2011) that one of my schoolmate in elementary school was accepted as a new student of Massachusetts Institute of Technology. the thing is, I salute him (well, this is not the main thing). I mean, if he could did it, then why wouldn't I? see, the fact is that the world is not as big as we're thinking. I can go to that place. I swear, someday. I can be a pride of my parents, my big family, my friends, and even more my very own country. I live once, the world must know me for centuries.

anyway, I'm not in the mood to continue studying Transport Phenomenon, so here, I got you guys an art piece of mine. I've promised right?

But I Don't Know Her Name

One of IMG Models I Fancy

27 November 2011

proker terakhir

2011-11-24T21:17:00.002+07:00

BARAK DTK UI 2011

Kabar Angkatan Teknik Kimia UI Tahun 2011 :')

Dengan segala hormat dan rasa terima kasih untuk pembinaan selama setahun ini, gue persembahkan proker terakhir yang gue jalanin buat warga warga teknik kimia tercinta, here it is, BARAK yang udah gue desain dan gue saring kata katanya sedemikian rupa tentang apa kabar angkatan mereka, kesibukan apa aja yang ada dalam beberapa pekan terakhir ini, dan bagaimana ke depannya, good luck you guys ;O

ngga ngerti lagi........ rasanya jatuh cinta.

2011-11-23T12:55:00.002+07:00

:')

weird wishes

2011-11-20T15:34:00.003+07:00

I want to travel to Japan as soon as possible, alone. I want to play poker in Las Vegas. I want to sing "The Great Gig in The Sky" and "Return to Forever" somewhere at a great gig, great venue like Glastonbury Festival. I want to work in oil company somewhere in Dubai. I want to walk on a high class runway somewhere in Milan.

I wanna talk to myself

2011-11-20T12:03:00.000+07:00

don't rush it boy, don't rush it.
He may not give you what you want, but He always gives you what you need.
he knows you, don't make yourself feel uneasy.
Mens sana in corpore sano, you lame.
you are so fucking special, goddamit. believe it.

an exposed life.

2011-11-09T15:12:00.006+07:00

This Is The Way I look Right Now

29 July 2011

I probably am a kid who tries so hard to know anything that satiates my passion because, all by myself~ ♪♪♪
I learn it on my own, I also seek everything I'd like it to be mine by my own way. after I know I've known it so well, I make it to be an art piece. and then when I have it, I possess it for myself.

but recently... some thoughts came out, why didn't I show what I've known? why did I hide what I've learnt?

you see, things are not that simple. I think that I am the one whose life doesn't want to be exposed. I think that, by showing off what I've made... first, by anyhow you will steal it from me. and second... that you'll know who I am somehow. that is what I don't like it at all.

but after so many things, I reconsider my thinking.

so, it's coming... soon, a glance of my artworks after all these years I've hidden it for myself. though I better buy scanner first. wait for it, wait for it...

Irlywnmkitright

2011-11-04T19:35:00.002+07:00

"Allah swt. mempersiapkan milyaran tahun untuk menciptakan kita,
kenapa bisa kita ngga sayang sama diri sendiri?"

- mama

cenayang

2011-11-03T20:42:00.008+07:00

07 November 2011

you know, I really enjoy what's happening. you know exactly, I really enjoy every single time we spend together. you know, I don't really know what you like, but it means that you have the whole time to tell me everything, right? so, I don't really mind about what they say anymore. this is so relieving (•‾⌣‾•)

it is so hard to carry huge dreams on your own

2011-10-30T18:24:00.002+07:00

when the expectation went higher, and you notice that you're alone in this game. it is hard like, seriously.

I tell you what

2011-10-29T22:14:00.008+07:00

you've got know that my heart's price is so fucking expensive. all you've got to know, only that I am priceless.

But I don't know which country.

2011-10-27T18:52:00.002+07:00

"you were made of european blood 19 years ago,
quintessence, and air. you're meant to be living here," someone said to me.

it is not synchronizing.

2011-10-17T17:03:00.001+07:00

there is no place that I have seen. Somewhere between waking and sleeping.

Black Magic

2011-09-07T12:54:00.003+07:00

that time I was in Mont Des Arts, I may call it as the most valuable place I'll be at. I spent most of my time there, in Musees du Royaux des Beaux-Arts de Belgique.... staring at,

The Ignorant Fairies

La Fee ignorante

Portraits of Anne-Marie Crowet

The Empire of Lights

L'Empire des Lumieres

And, Black Magic or La Magie Noire. All of them is Rene Magritte's Masterpieces. My eyes were all raped by his paintings. which is why I also adore Nigel van Wieck's. because I feel like both of them making the paintings so dead, yet so real.

stad brugge

2011-07-09T15:16:00.000+07:00

it's funny when you think A and I think B then we conclude it by saying C.

2011-07-04T02:36:00.007+07:00

I'm ruined. sadly, my best friend will be no longer around. My college friend died. I'm not attending Rock Werchter 2011. I will live my life differently like, right now. then yes, it is funny enough. I didn't see this coming.

mimpi 15 juni 2011

2011-06-19T13:38:00.000+07:00

adek gue ngomong ke gue sebelom dia pergi nutup pintu, "iya mau pergi mau ngeliat gerhana bulan malem ini"
malemnya, beneran ada gerhana bulan.

movies, that just would make you say, "oh, honey"

2011-06-06T12:13:00.003+07:00

"Nothing that happens is ever forgotten, even if you can't remember it."

Zeniba

Spirited Away

"Forgiving… is giving your hate just a little room in your heart."

Su Jin

A Moment to Remember

what makes love.

2011-05-30T21:49:00.005+07:00

What Makes Love

30 May 2011

awaits. believes. carries. keeps. feels. seeks. prays. builds. loves.

randomly... epic.

2011-05-26T01:38:00.008+07:00

one day in March I had an event in my Campus and I was on charge to be receptionist. that wasn't the main story. By the time I came home, I got exhausted and blanked. so I took a rest a bit, in fact I didn't realize that I was sleeping at the parlor of my boarding house. I didn't give a damn. then my pal called me to meet her at campus for a business. I got there bringing only my purse and key room. then I walked along the way home, mumbling. I was about to get into my room continue taking rest then I realized I lost my key. it was like,

щ(ºДºщ)

so excited about what was happening, I re-walked my way home and looked at the road searching that shitty little thingy. I didn't found it until I got to the place I met my pal. I was frustrated, I also had no spare key, wait, it was my spare key anyway -___- and I didn't know where to go but my only home. real home. I was like, mumbling, again

(⌣́_⌣̀")

then I asked one of bike drivers to take me to train station. I chose someone that was far from me. along the way, the driver asked me,

"what happened, miss?"

"ah never mind, sir"

"have you lost something?"

"yes, but it's nothing"

"was it a key?"

"yes, how'd you find out sir?"

"oh it was a key..."

"huh? huh?"

"was it a key numbered $$?"

"yes! did you find it somehow? it was tiny how'd you find it?"

"I used some magic"

"ah -_- you found it on road, didn't you?"

"I don't know~"

arrived at the station, the driver put something out from his pocket, MY KEY ROOM!

"you lost something important, better look after it more carefully miss"

"UWOW thank you sir! how kind of you. I thought no one could save it!" and I was like,

*\('▽')/**\('▽')/**\('▽')/*

"never mind, thank you too, miss"

I never thought that I could get my key room back, because it was so tiny so that no one in the world could ever recognize it or even more save it. and the epic one was, how could I choose the right driver that was holding my key? it took enough distance from the place I lost my key and the base of ojek. I'm wondering. I find this case was epic. just, so random.

bahasanya gue bagusin padahal pake mbak mas juga -_-

anyway, also thanks for all readers, keep reading my posts!

Aurum, Argentum dan Hidrargirum

2011-05-19T08:19:00.000+07:00

Aurum, Argentum dan Hidrargirum selalu hidup bersama sejak dahulu kala. Ketiganya hidup memukau dan memilaukan seisi jagat raya. Tapi hidrargirum dengan ketamakannya ingin menjadi lebih istimewa dari aurum, si warna emas. Aurum merasa terancam lalu melindungi diri. Tetapi tipu daya muslihat begitu hebat, Aurum gagal, hidrargirum berhasil. Maka Aurum hidup dengan penuh renungan dan renungan, sedangkan Hidrargirum hidup dengan penuh pesona dan kepuasan. Seiring berjalannya waktu Hidrargirum menjadi sosok yang paling dikagumi dan dibenci. Sedangkan Aurum tetap berusaha mengembalikan cahaya keemasannya lagi dengan penuh jerih payah. Tapi hidrargirum selalu membawa malapetaka, hidrargirum tidak tinggal diam menanggapi hal itu, hidrargirum ingin dirinyalah yang paling dilihat oleh jagat raya. Begitulah keadaannya. Hidrargirum dari waktu ke waktu akhirnya berada pada puncak gunung dan memandangi jagat raya sebelah mata. Hidrargirum dengan penuh arogansinya mencaci maki Aurum dan Argentum. Hidrargirum pun semakin dikagumi, dikagumi, dan dikagumi. Sisa dari kehidupan ketiganya berada pada pundak Aurum. Argentum, dengan sosoknya yang berkilau menentramkan selalu membela Aurum yang teraniaya, sampai hidup ketiga unsur kehidupan ini telah habis waktu paruhnya. Dan menghilang. Karena akhir adalah menghilang, semua ini terasa tidak begitu penting. Asalkan setiap sesiapa tahu arti dari segalanya adalah ketiadaan.

Hanya ada Tuhan Sang Pencipta.

Lalu mengapa mau dibutakan oleh ciptaan-Nya?

2011-05-16T22:53:00.001+07:00

fuck.

•(◐﹏◐)•

2011-05-04T00:49:00.004+07:00

kesihir banget sama lagu ini daru dulu ngga tau kenapa.......
sama vocalistnya, sama lirik lagunya, sama semuanya......

My body, my hand. My heaven, my land. My guardian angel is mine. And you say, my dreams, my head. My sex, my bed. And it's my Corona with lime. And then I say maybe, we could divide it in two. Maybe my animals live in Your Zoo. And You say my head, my frown. My kingdom, my crown. My palace and court is mine. And You say my lights, my show. My years to grow. The time that I spend is fine. And then I say maybe, we could divide it in two. Maybe my animals live in Your Zoo. And then I say maybe, maybe I'm in love with you. But You say my coat, my hat. My bones, my fat. My zipper is shut by me. And You say, my skin, my blood. My devil, My God. My freedom is what You see. But then I say maybe, we could divide it in two. Maybe my animals live in Your Zoo. Then I say maybe, Maybe I'm in love with You. But then I say maybe, we could divide it in two. Maybe my animals live in Your Zoo. Then I say maybe, maybe I'm in love with You. My begining, My end. My nuclear bomb to pretend. My begining, My end. My nuclear BOMB!

2011-04-23T17:15:00.002+07:00

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shitte

2011-04-18T20:10:00.000+07:00

knock it off already. a wheel spins you pisspot.

nyawa, terbang!

2011-04-09T15:35:00.002+07:00

this post is related to the old one, better read this first:
nyawa 10000 rupiah

karena akhir akhir ini sinus gue kambuh (lagi) terus gue jadi banyak ngelantur dan karena pas cerita sama mama gue udah capek abis pulang dari depok pake ekonomi ac penuh banget -_- dan karena gue udah ngantuk juga, dan karena gue ngga tau apa ini bener apa gimana mimpinya, dan karena mimpi selalu datang, ceritanya gini, tiba-tiba gue nanya ke nyokap,

"ma hamster mati ya?"

"iya, kok tara tau?"

"iya semalem tara dapet mimpi."

"mimpi apa tara?"

"hamsternya ngomong sama tara ma"

"ngomong apa hamsternya?"

"iya ma jadi dia ada di kandangnya gitu, terus tara liat dia udah lincah lagi. terus hamsternya bilang, makasih ya udah ngerawat aku selama ini, kupingku udah sembuh kok. aku udah sehat lagi"

"kupingnya emang udah sehat kok sayang, tapi sebenernya didalem tubuhnya. Bude bilang sebelum mati lidahnya luka, kaya sariawan gitu terus akhirnya dia mati"

"oh gitu ma" (sambil mewek).

"kenapa tara bisa mimpi gitu?"

"ngga tau ma."

"mungkin tara punya ikatan batin kali ya sama hamster. kok sama mama malah ngga ya?"

ya kali ma -_-

pokoe he died. my thunder died. alhamdulillah dia udah ngga ngerasain sakit lagi.
eh yang ini hamsternya lucu banget deh.....

"tapi terakhir mama denger lagi hamsternya itu sebenernya ditabrak mobil, terus akhirnya bude beli lagi tapi jatoh dari meja terus mati, terus bude beli lagi 2 eh malah berantem terus mati"

..........kayanya kalimat terakhir beneran ngelantur gitu deh. tapi cerita yang diatas bener kok.

tschuss.

ma pals uyeah

2011-04-05T23:32:00.012+07:00

I made these when I got beaten up by Organic Chemistry. Because my munyu munyu friends sat next to me and I got pretty bored, hence I told them to stand still and make a pose and... and... there they were.

ameyey

vinyanyu

I love his name :p

2011-03-28T15:05:00.001+07:00

but who's to blame?

for a love that............................................

please

2011-03-20T17:30:00.005+07:00

I assume it's a british male band's. the song was on air in these recent days. the voice and david gates' (bread) were a bit similar. and the song had similar characteristic with bread's. the lyrics contained "disappointed" word and I didn't know anything else. but it had stuck in my head for goddamn days. and I can't stand it. I wanna hear it again. please. somebody. TELL ME.

or simply:
pokonya lagunya sering di radio akhir akhir ini. terus suara vokalisnya mirip david gates (vocalistnya bread) tapi lebih lembut. lagunya lembut selembut lagu bread tapi auranya aura suede. monoton. kayanya british deh. tapi kayanya swedish juga bisa. tapi mungkin aja lagu ballad juga. pokonya ada kata "disappointed feeling" gituuuuuu di reffnya. yang bisa kasih tau. makasih banget. komen ya, pake nama juga boleh kali heee.

Golden Voices

2011-02-28T18:24:00.005+07:00

I found them very talented because they sing in most daring voice character. I wish I was. I imagine that someday, I could ever tell the world how I feel in the very furious voice. I think about the world so much. The world must know emotionally, what exactly my mind is like.

The Great Gig in The Sky

by Pink Floyd, sang by Clare Torry

What Your Soul Sings

by Massive Attack, sang by Sinead O'connor

Teardrop

by Massive Attack, sang by Elizabeth Fraser

Return to Forever

by Blood Ceremony, sang by Alia O'Brien

Wuthering Heights

by Kate Bush, sang by Kate Bush

Group Four
by Massive Attack, also by Elizabeth Fraser

Teknik Kimia

2011-02-22T11:22:00.001+07:00

terbuka untuk saudara seteknik seIndonesia,

mari ramaikan acara, bisa daftar mulai hari ini sampai 4 maret 2011.

prerequisite

2011-02-19T16:56:00.002+07:00

"The magic is in the telling," Someone said.

I love details. If you love me, love the details first.

gifted

2011-02-16T00:14:00.006+07:00

I adore the way Nigel Van Wieck accomplishes his very own masterpieces. so dead and so real.

envious much.

The Staten Island Ferry

oil on panel 10 x 18 inches

Summer Vacation

oil on panel 18 x 36 inches

nyawa 10000 rupiah

2011-02-14T18:34:00.008+07:00

ade gue beli hamster di bulan desember kemaren. di bazaar. harga cukup 10ribu rupiah aja. pas banget sama liburan mahasiswa selama 1 bulan, gue pulang lagi ke rumah. liburan cukup banyak pergi kesana sini tiap weekend, tapi weekdays beda lagi ceritanya. bosen setengah mati.

terus tiba-tiba aja hamster jadi sahabat gue. tiap hari rumah kosong, yang lain lagi sekolah, kerja, tinggal bertiga sama hamster sama mama. karena bosen, main sama piaraan bisa jadi hal yang paling menyenangkan lho -_-

hamsternya sehat minggu pertama sama kedua, makannya juga keurus, lincah, gemuk, sehat lah. terus besok besoknya sering gue lepas, kadang di ruang tamu, di halaman, ngeliat hamster bisa lari kesana sini ngeliatnya aja udah seneng. gue makin tau makin kesana, hamster kalo lagi haus bakal manjat kandangnya sampe ngeliatin gue bawa minum, sampe gue nuangin air putih. Atau, kalo lagi bosen hamsternya bakalan lari-lari di roda kandangnya, sambil tiap berapa detik sekali berenti ngeliatin gue, minta dilepas di halaman. terus kalo makanan udah dikasih, biasanya hamster bakal simpen makanannya di pipinya, dan di keluarin di tempat yang dia suka.

sepele, tapi ternyata seekor hamster bisa jadi sosok yang penting banget di hidup lo.

ngga tau kenapa minggu terakhir sebelum kuliah lagi, hamsternya mulai lesu, kurus, kupingnya berjamur. gue bingung, gue tanya sekeluarga ngga ada yang ngerti, gue kasih betadine akhirnya -_- awalnya hamsternya lincah lagi, makan selalu abis, dan masih sehat.

tapi jamurnya makin banyak, dan kuping hamsternya makin keras, gue makin bingung, terus hamster kerjaannya tidur mulu ngga seaktif yang kemarin2. akhirnya makanannya gue banyakin, betadine gue kasih tiap hari, gue ajak main tiap hari biar sehat lagi.

dan udah hari terakhir liburan, gue pulang ke dunia kampus. hamster gue titipin ke orang serumah. tapi gue ngga tau siapa yang bakal ngasih betadine, rasanya ngga bakal ada dan kalo dikasih pun ngga ngaruh juga. udah sekian lama ngga ada kabar, kuliah juga udah mulai sibuk. dan gue tanya adek gue, gimana hamster? katanya makin kurus, kupingnya mulai luka, dan robek. ngga ngerti, seumur hidup baru kali ini gue mau jadi dokter. ngga tau kenapa kepikiran, gue mau hamsternya sembuh. tapi kenyataannya, setelah sekian lama kuliah gue balik ke rumah, gue liat sendiri dengan takut,

makin parah.

hamsternya tidur, tidur doang. kalo dipanggil ngga respon, kalo di geser kandangnya baru dia bergerak. itupun ngga buka mata. makanan ngga disentuh, air minum masih banyak.

fuck.

bahkan kupingnya berdarah, dan ternyata jamurnya juga nyebar ke kuping sebelahnya.
gue pikir-pikir lagi kenapa hamsternya bisa selemes itu? jangan-jangan jamurnya juga masuk ke otaknya?

sampe sekarang gue nulis ini, hamsternya gue rasa udah sekarat, gue berharap banget hamsternya mati aja. apa kek, dikasih kucing gitu, atau kalo udah ngga tahan lagi kenapa sih ngga mati aja. tapi ini? masih hidup, mati juga belom segan.

dan gue ngga bisa berenti nangis karena itu. kasian nyawa sekecil itu hidup kalo cuman buat kesakitan tiap harinya. sayangnya, hidup yang harganya 10ribu rupiah ngga ada yang mau nolongin, ngga mau ada yang bawain ke dokter hewan, alesannya, yaampun itu cuman hamster cebanan doang kali, ngapain diobatin? mahal.

gue baru tau rasanya, seekor hamster bisa berarti banget dalam hidup seseorang, selama di rumah dia yang jadi temen main gue, dia yang tadinya tukang gigit, tapi hari ke hari makin jinak, minta main, minta makan. tapi makin kesini gue ngeliat dia sakit, yang tiap harinya cuman tambah parah.

rasanya itu kaya lo punya temen, lo cuman punya dia, dia cuman punya lo. di dunia lo cuman kenal dia, ngga kenal siapa siapa lagi selain dia, dan lo bergantung sama dia. terus tiba-tiba temen lo kena kanker otak gitu, terus dia sekarat minta mati tapi ngga bisa. lo juga ngga tau harus ngapain.

stuck. and it sucks so damn much, I tell you.

satu hal pelajaran yang belom pernah sama sekali gue dapet sama sekali sebelumnya:

manusia tidak akan pernah mengerti cinta jika belum pernah tahu rasanya kehilangan.

gue belom pernah ngerasain kehilangan seseorang sebelumnya. pertama kalinya rasa kehilangan itu muncul ya sama hamster ini. ngga tau kenapa.

gue benci banget kalo sampe adek gue beli hamster lagi.

Interpreten Ja? Nein?

2011-02-09T02:49:00.003+07:00

send Pink and Floyd a massive attack in the air, then the radio on my head will play La Chanson D'arc~en~Ciel, it supplies air to my soul. David and the Bowies will be glad to hear that so that they will make a blood ceremony. everyone gets blurred, then everyone goes to Mars by Volta. therefore everyone misses Hyde and his Gorillaz, but suddenly Eels got all eaten. Later the super insurgent group will get the intemperance talent. bitte.

jan to the uary

2011-01-21T07:09:00.007+07:00

I wish I know what this is all about, I wish I know there was something beyond my dreams that apparently always come into my nights. I wish I know why I dreamt and forgot so much.

I am a dreamer, literally.

L'Arc~en~Ciel

2010-12-28T19:38:00.003+07:00

Laruku is coming :DD

sounds impossible to me but they ARE really coming :DD glad knowing that 8DD

no matter how much it costs, I'll definitely come.

faces

2010-12-22T16:04:00.005+07:00

I've listened to it for so many times, I just couldn't believe that there are so few people listen to it, just couldn't believe, just couldn't. you know what I mean lah. I adore much this song.

Faces - Electrico

I'm sitting here thinking of you. I’m trying so hard, finding it so hard recalling your name. Just another face in the crowd. But You’re shining so loud, shining out so loud, I’m taking the blame. Faces live inside my head. It's you I choose to see instead. Caution lies in the wind but it can be so wrong. I learnt it was so wrong to stay in the game, been trying to turn away. I've been facing for so long, been facing for too long, It all feels the same. Faces live inside my head. It's you I choose to see instead and I guess that’s what you are. Come along take me home. And it feels like the only one, like the only time. My eyes open up to the other side and the strings unwind. My eyes to the other side and the strings unwind to let me go. Turning faces in my head, changing slowly into shapes. Faces live inside my head. It's you I choose to see instead and into a canvas sky, leaving only you behind

how I mean it.

2010-12-21T22:20:00.000+07:00

she waits for no prince, she longs for a king to win her heart

she lingers on state of being alone, she merely yearns for the one

she stays gold, she keeps diamond

it might be vexing, yet she keeps awaiting

it might be so obsolete, yet she still believes in

she is saturnian young lady

2010-12-02T01:37:00.001+07:00

only for you I don't regret that I was Thursday's child

2010-11-26T19:54:00.002+07:00

2010-11-26T00:50:00.001+07:00

love happens.

no matter

2010-11-20T11:01:00.001+07:00

20 November 2011

No matter how long I take rest. no matter how hard I try.......... I will always be exhausted. something's wrong with my body.
syaf, I'm sorry.

Melati Suci

2010-08-22T11:43:00.008+07:00

I heard this once, and just hearted it in no sec

Melati Suci - Guruh Soekarno Putra

this beautiful song proved how lovely people who fall in love.

how sweet love makes you.

I just don't know what to do but cry.

Putih

Putih melati

Mekar di taman sari

Semerbak wangi penjuru bumi

Seri

Seri melati

Bersemi anggun asri

Kucipta dalam gubahan sunyi

Tajuk bak permata

Siratan bintang kejora

'Kan kupersembahkan

Bagimu pahlawan bangsa

Putiknya pesona

Rama-rama 'neka warna

'Kan kupersembahkan

Bagi pandu Indonesia

Suci

Suci melati

Suntingan 'bu Pertiwi

Lambang nan luhur budi pekerti

Tajuk bak permata

Siratan bintang kejora

'Kan kupersembahkan

Bagimu pahlawan bangsa

Putiknya pesona

Rama-rama 'neka warna

kan kupersembahkan

bagi pandu Indonesia

Prospek Kerja Insinyur Teknik Kimia

2010-08-18T19:28:00.011+07:00

Dari berbagai pendidikan tinggi ilmu teknik, pendidikan teknik kimia adalah ilmu terapan, yang fokus ilmunya adalah untuk memproses suatu unsur kimia, menjadi sesuatu hal yang berguna. Unsur-unsur atau senyawa-senyawa ini dapat ditemukan di alam terbuka. Ada suatu unsur yang dapat diperbaharui, ada pula unsur yang tidak dapat diperbaharui. Dapat dipastikan, semua perusahaan yang bidang kerjanya adalah memproses berbagai macam unsur kimia tersebut sangat membutuhkan insinyur-insinyur teknik kimia. Dan sangatlah sepadan dengan kerja keras dan tingkat kesulitan ilmu teknik kimia apabila dilihat dari honor yang diberikan atas jasa insinyur tersebut.

Rata-Rata Honor Insinyur Teknik Kimia

Jenis Pengalaman Kerja	Honor dalam USD/Tahun
Industri Kimia Konsultan Proyek Minyak dan Gas Farmasi Suling Petroleum Perusahaan Pemerintah	68000-85000 65000-80000 70000-88000 70000-88000 76800-95000 50000-100000

Apabila disimpulkan dari payscale.com, dengan sekian macam pendapatan termasuk bonus, pembagian profit proyek, komisi, rata-rata seorang insinyur dapat menghasilkan antara 59800-87400 USD per tahunnya. Pendapatan pun dapat meningkat seiring dengan pengalaman kerja yang terus bertambah, terlebih lagi jika posisi insinyur di perusahaan sudah dikategorikan manager atau senior manager.

Inti studi insinyur teknik kimia:

Subjek-subjek umum.
Subjek khusus: nafta mekanika, termo kinetika, katalis, reaksi-reaksi kimia.
tahun final: proses-proses kimia, instrumentasi, pengolahan limbah, energi berkelanjutan, kimia lingkungan.

sudah merupakan kewajiban saat terjun lapangan, seorang insinyur teknik kimia untuk membuat suatu model pembangunan yang dapat menanggungjawabkan limbah kimia, dan menangani serta memelihara sumber daya alam. Jika memasuki level manufaktur, seorang insinyur berkewajiban dalam hal seleksi bahan mentah, kalibrasi dalam bahan, instrumentasi, dan waktu yang diperlukan, lalu memproduksinya menjadi bahan pakai. Dan dalam tahap produksi, takaran dan standar kualitas harus dijaga.

inti dari keseluruhan adalah: ciptakan, proses, gunakan, dan daur ulang sesuai dengan standar dan peraturan yang berlaku. Dan sangatlah berguna ilmu teknik kimia dewasa kini, jika mampu untuk menciptakan suatu proses kimia baru yang menangani kasus atau masalah lingkungan dan menciptakannya dengan model ramah lingkungan serta hemat biaya.

untuk lebih lengkapnya, silakan buka link berikut:
teknik kimia

evangelion: 2.0

2010-07-26T08:07:00.003+07:00

an impressive movie. I don't have much else to say about.

baca: AAAAAAAAAAAA SPEECHLESS NONTON INI MAH -_- nangis gue nangisssss kejer auauauauau suka banget sama ceritanya, menyentuh banget. berisi banget. apalagi artworknya, DETAILLLL! ANIMASINYA? OH MY TINGKAT DEWA

pengen punya model kit eva nya jugaaa 8( ayo dong kapan evangelion 3.0 keluaaar ah sumpah kayak gini kek film film indo jaman sekarang. berisi dikit.

what an outstanding existence

2010-07-14T17:41:00.008+07:00

I don't listen to easy music. thus I listen to david bowie's. sorry guys, no mainstream ever again.

His way of music is rocking glamourous, I don't know who the one can ever imagine the very best melodies but he. He also plays the role very well in fashion. who the hell won't say that he really is the genius one in both worlds. he likes being unique in music and fashion and it fvcking works. I am so in love of his way of thinking. no doubt if he is known for his distinctive voice and for the intellectual depth of his work.

try to listen guys, if you don't mind irregular melodies.

Ashes to Ashes - David Bowie

menyimak U dan I

2010-07-14T17:15:00.016+07:00

I never said it was easy becoming one of yellow jackets. yet I wasn't studying that hard to get that yellow thing. in a matter of facts maybe I was really the lucky girl. yes, I am the lucky one.

but instead calling it lucky, I'd rather tell you what had happened first. this was what actually happened during the test.

pagi pagi gue udah menuju ke tkp, sma 3 dan 8. gue doang yang pake seragam lengkap dari kerudung sampe sepatu hitam dari sekian ratus orang -_-" banyak orang yang ngeliatin gue dengan tampang sok pinter atau apalah ngga ngerti aduh gatau kenapa ya gue paling ga suka diliatin seakan gue rendahan gue udah ngelus dada dari pagi itu ya Allah.

sebelum ngerjain tes gue udah siapin paspor di meja tes gue. ya udah siap lah semuanya di meja gue cuman ada kertas pendaftaran, paspor, pensil sama penghapus. gue ikutin aturannya.

di aturan tes masuk u dan i, peserta diharuskan membawa tanda pengenal nya yang bisa berupa kartu pelajar, KTP, atau paspor.

gue udah ikutin aturannya, daaaaan yang gue bingung,

"mana tanda pengenal kamu?"

"maksud ibu ktp?"

"iya ktp"

"maaf bu saya bawanya paspor, saya ngga pake ktp"

"lho? ngga bisa gitu dong, kan harusnya ktp"

"tapi bu, di website nya boleh bawa paspor atau ktp"

"mana coba liat kertas pendaftaran kamu?"

"itu bu saya pilihnya bawa paspor di kertasnya juga udah ditulis kan" (sambil ngeliatin tulisannya: jenis identitas: paspor)

"tapi kok ini ngga mirip fotonya? kok kamu ngga bawa ktp?"

"maaf bu saya kan baru ulang tahun minggu lalu, sedangkan pas verifikasi ikut serta tes saya belom punya ktp, jadi saya pake jenis identitasnya paspor aja"

"tapi kok di foto ini (kertas pendaftaran) sama di paspor ngga mirip aslinya?"

"bu ini beneran saya, saya bukan joki"

"tapi ini ngga mirip lho, tanda tangannya juga"

"bu beneran deh itu saya, itu tanda tangan saya, mirip bu beneran"

"coba mana ktp kamu?"

"ibu mau saya ke depan ambil ktp saya?"

"iya" (gue ambil ktp gue dari tas di depan kelas guys, padahal kalo di tes itb ngga boleh tuh kayak gini, pasti udah di diskualifikasi)

"ini bu, saya baru dapet ktp kemaren bu"

"kok disini ngga mirip ktp paspor sama di kertasnya?"

"bu itu beneran saya liat dari nama lengkapnya juga udah sama kan"

"tanda tangannya beda"

"tapi kan identitasnya sama bu, beneran itu saya"

"coba kamu tanda tangan" (gue tanda tangan readers, gue buktiin di kertas tanda tangan gue sama)

"tuh, ngga mirip kan sama yang di paspor"

"bu itu kan udah 3 tahun yang lalu, ya emang ngga mirip sih tapi itu saya"

"yaudah deh kerjain dulu tesnya, saya bawa paspornya ya"

percakapan itu udah berlangsung selama 15 menit readers, gue udah kehilangan 15 menit waktu berharga gue buat ngerjain soal tes.

tiba tiba setengah jam terakhir dateng lagi satu pengawas. ibu-ibu. tapi kayaknya lebih baik.

"maaf bisa saya tanya sebentar?"

"kenapa bu?"

"tanda pengenal kamu selain paspor ada?"

"maksud ibu ktp?"

"iya"

"ini bu"

"kamu ngga mirip sama yang difoto, kok bisa?"

"bu kalo di paspor kan pas saya umur 14, ya ngga mirip dikit lah"

"terus kok kamu ngga pake ktp aja?"

"bu, jadi kan gini, kan kalo pas pendaftaran-online-ikut-serta-ujian kan peserta harus bawa tanda pengenal pas hari H-nya kan bu?"

"iya"

"nah, pas verifikasi saya ikut serta dalam ujian saya pilih paspor bu, soalnya saya belom punya ktp, saya baru ulang tahun minggu lalu bu, itu verifikasinya kan bulan februari, ini aja saya baru dapet ktp kemaren"

"terus di ktp sama kertasnya juga ngga mirip sama kamu"

gue udah kehilangan kesabaran nih sampe pengen nangis, mata gue udah merah ha ha ha.

"bu, demi Allah itu beneran saya, saya ngga boong, saya pake paspor itu karena saya baru dapet ktp kemaren, maaf bu ngga mirip tapi itu beneran saya"

"oh yaudah deh, kamu udah selesai ngerjain tesnya?"

"belom bu"

"yaudah lanjutin ya maaf ya ganggu waktu kamu"

belom lagi gue ngerjain soalnya udah bingung, gue masih diliatin pula sama anak sekelas selama gue diinterogasi. alhamdulillah nya dengan waktu gue yang kurang lebih kebuang selama setengah jam karena verifikasi identitas gue masih bisa ngerjain semua soal, gue kosongin cuman 2-3 soal.

duh sampe sekarang aja gue masih pengen nangis hahaha. I don't know what happened but my writing an awful experience made me about to cry. my heart beats so fast now.

jadi lo bisa bilang apa guys tentang keberuntungan? gue lebih percaya hukum sebab-akibat. kalo kita sabar, pasti kita dapet balesan yang lebih baik, seharga dengan kesabaran itu.

lagipula gue lebih suka percaya kalo keberuntungan gue itu baru ada kalo udah di pulau dewata. ntar kapan2 gue cerita deh. eh tapi jangan anggep gue lulus gara2 kejadian ini doang ya guys, gue emang berusaha kok selama sma buat dapet jaket kuning. sangat2 berusaha, apalagi ujian kesabarannya. mantep, pol.

Mesut Ozil ♥

2010-06-29T16:06:00.006+07:00

couple of years ago

2010-06-09T20:26:00.005+07:00

my uncles, my teacher, my friend's big brother, my friend's sister in law, my grandma, just never be me. never was nor will be.

Piano Concerto

2010-06-04T07:49:00.005+07:00

lagu yang paling buat gue tenang selama tinggal di Auckland

Piano Concerto no. 2 op. 18 adagio sostenuto - sergei rachmaninoff

Missile

2010-05-30T12:19:00.006+07:00

teater koma

2010

I kinda hate music in this era, it's hard to find music that stays in the right place.

...anyway, this time I recommend you "Missile" by IAMX. I love its third alignment somehow.

"think you're giving but you're taking my life away"

dedicated to my beloved one. I wish you the worst my love.

Missile-IAMX

17 years I had me clean

2010-05-24T12:38:00.010+07:00

17 Years I had Me Clean

2009

I thought I was completely a free young lady. I thought I was being loved like I was the only girl he had. I thought I succeed proving I can stay in the right place myself although I did. I was down, went I to deep under, after I recognized my beloved papa wasn't the same anymore. I wished for years my papa wouldn't as he is now. I failed. I had my wishes blownout. faded, away.

you didn't trust me from the very first beginning, hence I was completely down.

just saying.

VIRUS?

2010-05-17T08:30:00.007+07:00

I've read about it, and of course I've forgotten about it easily. I also have recalled it again and again, and of course I've done something reckless. I just can't remember it, and I am fucked up. I've been told about it once more, and blindly so easily I forgot it, AGAIN. Now I google it, and I found it. YES, IN THE END, BIG THANKIE FOR GOOGLE AND THE CREW. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

sebenernya gue cuman pengen ngasih tau ini doang:

VIRUS. virus merupakan suatu peralihan dari benda hidup dan benda mati, maka itu virus disebut "METAORGANISME" makasih makasih..

do you really wanna know what I'm always interested in?

2010-04-09T18:36:00.006+07:00

click me!

you don't see it, do you?

2010-04-07T13:35:00.002+07:00

Glass Art

2010-03-30T18:56:00.002+07:00

I really really like Glass Art. it was like spacing out to nowhere but nostalgic. (bingung ga lo?)

I really wanna do a trial. could you please tell me guys, where can I find a place to study glass art?

fucking eraser

2010-03-30T11:05:00.010+07:00

I hate eraser. really, really, hate, eraser.

last two days were really important to me, I was doing I-and-T-to-the-B test, and in the last test I didn't notice that evidently I lost my my fucking eraser somewhere. although I had 2 jumbo erasers but why the hell at the moment I didn't have at least one?

you see, during the test, we're not allowed to talk to somebody or even more to borrow someone's fucking eraser. dumbass until the last seconds I couldn't change my answers, I knew that I was choosing wrong answers but I got no choice to change them. IT SUCKS. and I was desperately asking the committee,

"maaf pak, bisa pinjam penghapusnya?"

"ngga ada penghapus ya?"

"iya pak"

tears almost dropped OH GOD I got one and I could change my wrong answers! hell I forgot one but thank God at least I could change 3 of them.

but why oh why,
and I just knew that........ while participants were doing drawing test, using eraser is forbidden. menye. I will blame on eraser as if I failed the test. just see.

there are forbidden-things-to-do-during-the-test lists if you're interested:

don't ever menye menye
don't look around while doing the test, ever!!!
don't borrow anything from someone near you
don't ask, never ask any questions to everyone
if you take arts and design major, don't ever use eraser while you're doing drawing test.

jadi. ingin. curhat. kan.

2010-02-15T23:32:00.006+07:00

like patrick to his spongebob

halo sahabat sahabat di luar sana,

udah lama ya ngga pernah ketemuan lagi...............

kabar gue?

baik alhamdulillah. masih sakit seperti biasa, tiap malem sinusnya kambuh, minta dioperasi (lagi) hahaha.

kabar gue?

kuliah gue lancar, sebentar lagi juga udah lulus kelas 3 kan? sebentar lagi semuanya pasti lebih berpencar lagi, pasti makin jarang ketemu, pasti udah ngga punya waktu luang seluang yang dulu.

kabar gue?

gue punya banyak temen temen baru di universitas, mereka semua baik, loyal, terbuka, dan ngebuat gue makin kangen sama lo semua tiap harinya.

kabar gue?

baik baik aja, keluarga juga sehat, mereka makin jarang juga ketemu sama gue, tapi enaknya tiap ketemu we're always having a quality time :'''

kabar gue?

mbok ya kita twitteran bareng lo masih nanya kabar gue? dunia serasa lebih dekat kan berkat internet? we have always kept in touch, haven't we?

kabar gue?

sebenernya ngga baik baik aja.

emang ada yang kurang. lo semua udah nggak ada di keseharian gue, dunia kita berasa udah beda banget -_- emang kita deket di dunia maya, tapi kenyataannya nggak... buat berbagi cerita rasanya juga susah, tiap bisa ketemu, rasanya too much to tell about, bahkan udah nggak bisa gue ceritain lagi dari awal. kadang nyesel juga rasanya ngelangkah lebih dulu, rasanya gue pengen bareng bareng terus.......................................

kabar gue?

ngga tau, rasanya kesel, gue pikir kuliah itu artinya gue udah dilepas, lepas beban sekolah. at least gue bisa lebih bebas buat lebih banyak hal sama lo semua, at least gue bisa punya waktu luang yang lebih banyak kan?

tapi ini nggak.

makin sulit.

kesel.

bahkan yang lebih gue ngga tau, kabar lo semua gimana? :'(

gue udah ngga tau lagi..........................

gue takut, sahabat juga bukan kata yang abadi.

gue selalu tau arti kata kemarin, tapi gue ngga bakal pernah tau hari ini dan esok seperti apa.

emang besok besok gue masih jadi sahabat lo semua?

yang jelas gue bersyukur gue pernah jadi dia.

I treasure every single day we've spent together,

I look forward to every opportunity that can lead me back to you.

because you guys are amazing, and you're too good to be left behind.

I wish you the best in life and in the after life.

digital hugs and kisses :'(

Inner Core

2010-02-11T18:35:00.007+07:00

the best song I've ever heard, I've ever learnt, I've ever felt.

the last song I would ever say "best" from all of them.

this song's really me. this song shows the real me.

nothing else can I say.

Inner Core-L'Arc~en~Ciel

(click click click thanks thanks thankie!)

RADIOHEAD FOR INDONESIA

2010-01-20T20:20:00.007+07:00

RADIOHEAD FOR INDONESIA

TRIBUTE TO RADIOHEAD

1.000.000 Dukungan untuk Mendatangkan Radiohead ke Indonesia

@ fx music Senayan, Jakarta

saturday 13th february 2010

starts at 14.00-DROP

htm: Rp 15.000,-

the past

2010-01-13T09:48:00.000+07:00

they don't know who I was, they don't know how I'm made, they don't know where I linger, they don't know when I fall, they don't know why I remain silent, they don't know what's my last name, they just don't know me. And they don't really want to know. And I don't really want to tell them.

the past always gets sweeter in every single second you live your life, I bet you.

trimm trabb

2009-12-18T15:08:00.004+07:00

I'm spaced out. also this song makes me feel so scared. because it makes me think satan is really anywhere, inside and outside my head (I got plenty of facts about it but I can't tell you).

but I really love this song. I love it since the first time I heard Damon Albarn screamed out with his falsetto voice. I think this guy's really a genius. and I love it when he spoke of something in the first 30 seconds of the song, his voice was soooooo ah, cute. -____-;

(check this out if you want to hear the first 30 seconds of the song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TsHr_hWU0Xc)

okay, see you later guys. I'm sure you'll like this song too.

trimm trabb-blur

shimavara

2009-12-12T21:18:00.003+07:00

ngga bisa bilang apa apa lagi selain:

guys, gue sayang banget sama lo semua.

You

2009-10-12T14:08:00.006+07:00

You are the sun and moon and stars are you

And I could never run away from you

You try at working out chaotic things
And why, should I believe myself not you?
It's like the world is gonna end so soon
And why should I believe myself?
You, me and everything caught in the fire
I can see me drowning
Caught in the fire.

this song tells me that this someone may be everything to us, this someone is the one you really must believe in, you even mustn't believe yourself.
it's all about love baby, you'd never run away from love
but on the other side, the most thing may ruin your life completely: love

the way they bringing the song is totally emotional.
please try to listen to it and maybe the way you're thinking about love may change.
what I'm trying to say is, don't be easy to fall for someone.

aduh susah ngomong pake bahasa inggrisnya -________-;

maksud gue, gini guys, jangan segampang itu buat cinta sama seseorang,
karena cinta itu bukan persoalan segampang yang lo pikir,
cinta itu menurut gue suatu anugrah Tuhan yang lo harus jalanin dengan penuh tanggung jawab, karena dengan begitu baru cinta bisa menampakkan dirinya yang indah.

aduh gila bahasa gueeee ahahahaha. ngerti ga maksudnya? ngerti kan?
cinta bukan persoalan yang gampang sekali lagi gue tegasin,
mending gausah lo jalanin kalo emang ga mampu
lo ga bakal bisa ngeliat indahnya cinta kalo cara lo menjalaninya aja udah salah gitu oke

You-Radiohead

Midnight Mosque Song

2009-10-05T15:32:00.011+07:00

hey you guys, you're so damn addicting

I've got to be honest. yeah you know what,

I think the S.I.G.I.T is really baffling -,-a

try to listen to this one guys, it's a bit different. But fascinating really.

I really enjoy the song, they're absolutely talented I'd say

I don't know how you'll find it, but just try to listen okay?

selamat menikmati <3>

Midnight Mosque Song-the S.I.G.I.T

(click click click thanks thanks thanks)

p.s. rektinya ganteeeng, suka deh =,=

crop circles

2009-10-05T14:03:00.013+07:00

jadi guys, kemaren gue nonton thrill channel no. 19, udah lama sih gue nonton minggu lalu lah.

terus gue nonton "Crop Circles" guys. itu sebuah tanda yang menarik banget ada di lahan gandum di inggris sana. kalau lo tau stonehenges, berarti yang namanya crop circles itu berada di dekatnya lah. tempatnya itu kayak di avebury, salisbury.

di google aje ye ahahaha

crop circles are patterns created by the flattening of crops such as wheat, barley, rye, or corn.

nah yang gue bingung, crop circles itu pattern-nya macem macem banget loh guys, cuman itu dibuat ga disengaja. ga ada yang sengaja ngebuat. PLEASE! bayangin pattern se-simetris itu ga ada yang pernah liat siapa yang buat! katanya sih alien, tapi gue ga percaya ahaha.

keren banget sumpah lo pada harus liat.

itu jadi cara buatnya gandum gandum yang ada dilahan, bakal dirundukkin oleh sesuatu yang selama ini ga ketauan siapa. mereka runduk sendiri dan membuat gradasi juga. terus biasanya crop circles itu muncul beberapa minggu sekali.

puzzling huh?

anyway guys, gue pengen banget tau siapa pembuatnya. keren bangeeet :(

so take a look guys!

Only Love Can Break Your Heart

2009-09-23T20:02:00.006+07:00

so guys gue ngepost lagi,

kali ini gue lagi suka banget 1 lagu yang menurut gue enak banget ahaha

langsung di klik aja ya 4shared ga gigit kok.

Only Love Can Break Your Heart-the S.I.G.I.T

sebenernya ini lagunya neil young sih tapi menurut gue versi the S.I.G.I.T juga bagus kok. sangat sangat bagus!
ada lagi sih yang enak dan pv nya nyeremin,

tapi yaa coba dulu aja lagu yang ini guys,

oke selamat menikmati <3

Evangelion: 1.0

2009-09-22T02:16:00.001+07:00

I just watched this movie last night. well I've watched this anime so many times before and you know what? I feel really different this time.
I feel, relieved, to be living by a normal life.
I said normal once again, NORMAL.
why?

because this movie told me that, being a pilot is not easy as people thought. being a pilot, risks your life so much, then while you survive, people will blame you just because they got injured or their places messed up.
well try to compare it people, have you ever boiled in a small room? have you ever boiled and no other people would save you? have you ever died countless time to save other people you didn't know? have you?

you have no idea baby, of course I wasn't talking about a plane pilot, and I wasn't blaming you for this (of course not this is just a movie review zz)
they were Evangelion pilots what I was talking about, they were trying to save people when they were boiled in a small tube, they got injured so many times to save them, then they did it again and again by the same reason. to save the citizens from the angels.

They were Ikari Shinji and Ayanami Rei who piloted Evangelions. they piloted EVA-01 and EVA-00. They piloted EVAs to kill the angels who destroyed the city (tokyo-03) and they're just a boy and a girl (14 years old baby)
what I was trying to say is,
I feel sorry for Shinji. he piloted EVA just because he wanted his father to praise him for once. It was so hard for Shinji to pilot this berserk but he kept piloting that thing. poor Shinji. And Ayanami too, I wish she won't die again for the 4th time, she's just a girl.

and guess what? I'm thinking of becoming an eva pilot. what'd you say?
maybe someday I will.

masa masa sulit

2009-09-20T00:12:00.005+07:00

gelapnya malam, tahukah kau ketika itu takdir begitu terlihat wujudnya?

aku duduk terpaku dan berkata,

"Ya Allah, inilah aku hamba-Mu,

inilah aku yang hina ini,
inilah aku yang tidak tahu sopan santun,
inilah aku yang tidak berarti bagi siapapun,
dan inilah aku yang terus meminta,

Ya Allah, pernahkah aku meminta agar aku dekat dengan-Mu?

aku ingat, ternyata tidak pernah.

Ya Allah, inilah aku yang hina ini,
inilah aku yang berlumur dosa,
inilah aku hamba-Mu,
terimalah aku apa adanya

aku hina dan aku datang Ya Allah, memenuhi panggilan-Mu"

dinginnya pagi, tahukah kau takdir begitu terlihat senyata rasa kasih sayang Tuhan kepadaku.

Dan sekali aku lenyap. dalam balutan kasih sayang.

miyavi

2009-09-16T02:10:00.003+07:00

"So it's okay, just the way you are. The Real You. We love you. the world loves you." -sekaiha kimi wo aishiteru

miyavi fave gue banget jaman smp, sampe sekarang malah.

WHICH I DIDN'T KNOW THAT HE'S ALREADY MARRIED LAST 7TH OF JULY UHUHUHUHU

udah lama gue ga denger kabar dari dia tau tau dia udah nikah aja sama melody?

oke guys, miyavi itu,
salah satu artist jepang yang gue suka banget musiknya sumpah ya,
GUYS! YANG COWOK COWOK lo harus ngeliat se-sinting apa kalo dia main gitar! (liat di youtube) gimana gue bisa ga tepar sih kalo udah ngeliat dia live main (di youtube maksudnya) gue serius tapi dia bisa banget bikin musiknya sendiri. bener bener ga pernah ngikutin genre artist yang lain, style nya independent juga, musiknya warna warni banget sumpah (liat albumnya yang myvpops).

nama aslinya miyavi itu takamasa ishihara (gue baru tau SEKARANG soalnya dia emang ga pernah ngasih tau nama aslinya ke publik),
tingginya dia 185 cm,
beratnya dia 60 kg (buset ringan banget -_-),
lahir tanggal 14 september 1981,
tatoan (jangan ditanya lagi dia itu terlalu banyak tato apa lagi penuh banget kalo ngeliat punggungnya),
udah berenti ngerokok (ga penting).

dan yang paling penting, yang bikin gue salut dia itu straight, dia menikah, dia punya anak yang namanya Lovelie miyavi ishihara (wtffffff), padahal dia kalo fanservice seringnya bukan main loh cium orang sana sini akh gila.

yaampun miyavi

congrats to you

wish you are happy always

dengerin lagunya ya guys, enak banget deh,

ini salah satu masterpieces nya dia

oretachidake no fighting song-miyavi

tepar

2009-09-14T13:55:00.007+07:00

secapek ini gue

tara, hari ini ada tambahan matematika sampe jam 5. ikut ya

tara, les ya hari ini sampe jam 9 malem.

tara, besok tambahan kimia sama fisika oke?

tara, belajar dong jangan internetan mulu!

tara, hari apa yang masih kosong? mau ditambah ga harinya? udah kelas 3

tara, les nya sekarang 3 kali seminggu ya, matematikanya harus ditambah lagi

OKE, CAPEK GUE.

Beautiful World (FINALLY)

2009-09-08T10:15:00.018+07:00

Kino's Journey

Ya Allah... makasih banyak.

hahahahaha. aduh indah banget lagunya.

oke guys, gue ngepost lagi hahahaha. kemaren kemaren kan gue lagi addicted banget sama lagunya Neil Young yang "Philadelphia". Because it reminds about something, happened in the past.

It was something about my childhood.

then, gue pikir pikir lagi kemaren malem, lagunya emang bagus, tapi kok kayaknya ada yang kurang. gue nyanyiin, nada nya sih mirip, tapi gue pikir lagi ternyata lagu yang gue nyanyiin bukan lagu philadelphia. melainkan suatu lagu yang LAIN!

OHMYGOD

gue kayaknya makin nyesek lagi sekarang. gue semakin ga inget itu lagu apa yang gue nyanyiin. gue sih ingetnya itu lagu anime. kayaknya gue pernah denger di animax gitu deeeych (zz).

gue stress. gue gabisa tidur. gue cuman inget kalo gue nyanyiin nada nada yang indah itu gue keinget pemandangan malem di bawah bulan purnama, ada cewek. udah.

iyak hari ini gue cari lagi lagunya. makin stress gue, gue inget inget gue pernah nonton anime apa aja kayak; "Honey and Clover", "Jyuu oh Sei", "Towards the Terra", "Blood +", "Paradise Kiss"

dan ga ada yang srek sama ingatan goblok gue. aduh pikun banget gue sekarang. gue ga pernah minum cerebrovit huhu.

FINALLY GUYS, God surely wants anything good for us. I was reminded again. today. Happily. Alhamdulillah Ya Allah. lagunya indah banget.

itu ternyata lagu dari Kino's Journey

Beautiful World-Ai Maeda

itu animenya bagus banget loh guys, anime tentang cewe yang jadi pengembara gitu gara gara cowo yang dia suka dulu dibunuh sama rakyatnya di depan matanya.

click ya guys, denger lagunya, thanks.

bukan itu lagunya, frustasi deh

2009-09-08T08:07:00.008+07:00

I want to hit my incapable head

oke, kemaren gue udah bilang kalo gue sangat suka denger lagu "Philadelphia" nya Neil Young, karena lagunya itu ngingetin gue sama masa lalu. dan emang lagunya indah banget coba aja denger.

GOD, masa lalu. kayaknya gue keinget satu hal lagi. gue pikir pikir semaleman sampe baru tidur jam 12an kayaknya. oke.

ternyata BUKAN yang itu lagunya!!!

gue pernah denger lagi lagu macem yang sama, lagu salah satu anime gitu kayaknya. cuman gue gabisa inget apa. aduh lama lama gue makin KESEL karena udah susah susah lagu philadelphia gue cari ternyata bukan itu. gue KESEL, NYESEK, BINGUNG ARGH.

kesel kan lo? satu lagu indah yang lo suka banget tapi lo gatau itu judulnya apa dengernya dimana? terus tiba tiba aja lagunya ilang-lo lupa-??

KESEL kan lo? KESEL KAAAN? aduh lebay

gimana dong, oke gue cari dulu deh guys lagunya. ntar gue ngepost lagi.

Philadelphia

2009-09-06T14:53:00.011+07:00

pernah kesel ga sih lo?

lo suka sama satu lagu yang lo bakal nyanyiin terus di kepala lo supaya nada nada yang indah banget itu ga ilang, karena lo gatau judulnya?

lalu dengan enaknya tiba tiba nada nada nya wuuusssss ilang?

gue sering banget.

nah, akhir-akhir ini gue sering nonton HBO gatau yang mana family kali tapi masa buat family ada film gay nya? ... udah gitu nyokap gue ikut nonton lagi, pas bagian cium ciumannya ukh

gue nonton "Philadelphia"

itu cerita gay yang nuntut hak nya diterima di kalangan masyarakat terutama di bidang pekerjaan. yang main filmnya itu Tom Hanks sama Antonio Banderas loh!!

yang lainnya sih gue ga gatau gue ga kenal namanya hahaha (bukannya ga penting ya sorry).

akhirnya di part akhir film Andrew (Tom Hanks) meninggal karena mengidap penyakit AIDS. Tom Hanks keliatan kurus banget aduh kasian gue sama gay macem dia

di part akhir itu juga lah di perdengarkan lagu yang bener bener ngena banget, nonstop di-play terus itu lagu di otak gue,

Philadelphia-Neil Young

(click please, listen to that song, thank you)

gue gatau kenapa ya tapi gue bener bener sampe browsing kemana mana. awalnya gue gatau judul lagunya jadi gue harus nyari dulu ke movie "with Honors", terus gue nyari lagi ke "Pay It Forward" dan ga ketemu juga lagunya

akhirnya gue nyerah.

dan hari ini gue nonton HBO lagi dengan isengnya (duh lupa HBO yang mana) ada lagi itu film.

kok? kayaknya scene nya familiar di otak gue kayak ada hubungannya sama lagu yang selama ini gue cari. ternyata emang iya. part terakhir filmnya lagunya nyante aja main. padahal gue udah teriak teriak kesel sendiri gitu, gara gara ga ketemu ketemu dari kemaren kemaren lagunya.

ujung ujungnya, alhamdulillah. makasih ya Allah.

lagunya indah banget.

pertama kali

2009-09-05T10:14:00.006+07:00

shimabara would reunite once more. I'm looking forward to that lovely day.

halo halo halo, salam kenal ya

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